Help Wanted
25.11.2009
Fidgeting in my seat—palms wet, mind reeling; nerves taut, heart pounding—then Miss Khristine called out my name. Shoot, I uttered. Classmates cheered. I cringed. What the hell were they thinking? And there was this guy on my left who kept saying that he was looking forward to my turn to speak. Do not, I mouthed. Didn’t I mention months ago that I loathe public speaking to its last atom? Hate statements do not have an expiry as far as I am concerned. But since this subject is included in my curriculum, what more can I do?
You see, people, simple reporting and reciting in class are way different from extemporaneous speaking. So please. Spare me, and everybody else from your great expectations. There’s nothing more excruciating than adding insult to the injury. So please. Had I not braced myself for your ruthless eyes scrutinizing me as I stood there, composing myself and my thoughts on local and foreign shows, I could have cried in spite of myself. So please. Do not give me the impression that you are still those blithering idiots I used to nitpick.
So that’s just about all I can say regarding the freaking thing that transpired yesterday. From the little that I recall of it.
25.11.2009 at 2:49 pm
Uhmm… I would comment by saying “No Comment.”
Well, okay…
You don’t hate public speaking, you just don’t want to try…
28.11.2009 at 3:29 pm
You know so well how many times I’ve tried… and failed. Remember the Speechfest Fiasco?
28.11.2009 at 10:21 pm
Does it end there?
26.11.2009 at 7:53 pm
At least you sound this calm here.
28.11.2009 at 3:22 pm
Haha. I am always calm, you know that. I always sound calm when I write. Besides, I’m not that enraged naman, it’s just a way of letting the people know. But they would think otherwise, I suppose. Ah well. Wtfvr. I’m used to it.
Now I wonder if somebody in the class, aside from you, had already read this. And I also wonder if I’ll be able to come out of this course alive. My luck at the President’s List (and yours, too) lies in Miss K’s hands.
29.11.2009 at 4:16 pm
I think we’ll all be able to get out of our course alive, but I’m no longer targeting the President’s List with Felix C. taking our two major subjects…You know what I mean. What I’m wondering is if I’ll be able to finish taking up this semester Miss K’s subject.
Now, my English sounds stupid.
26.11.2009 at 9:34 pm
i don’t see any reason why you’d hate public speaking. your grammar is above average, your command of language is fluid.
maybe, it’s always a matter of believing. which is cheesy. i love speaking, i love the feeling when people listen to me. it makes me feel important.
28.11.2009 at 3:44 pm
Oh. Thanks! (Na-conscious tuloy ako bigla dahil sa mga compliments mo.)
Yes, believing.
Something that had happened in the past made me stop believing that I can stand in front of the people and tell them what I have to say eloquently.
28.11.2009 at 10:23 pm
Better start exercising your tongue now.